Tuesday, June 9, 2009

His name in writing

We were at home over the weekend for CJay's 10-year high school reunion. It was fun, but in the midst of the festivities, we had to stop by the funeral home to pick out a marker for Isaac's grave. We haven't been home since the graveside service, so this was our first opportunity to meet with someone from the funeral home. Picking out the marker wasn't hard. It was strange but not difficult. I kept thinking about how we picked Isaac's name, and like so many other parents, we had practiced saying it and wondered how he might grow into it. And yet there we were, staring at his name on paper, confirming the spelling, explaining the meaning of Liam, and picking out fonts for his grave's marker. I'm sure this falls high on the list of things a person should never have to do.

On the way home, we stopped by the cemetery. It's a small family cemetery high above Watauga Lake. It's beautiful there. The oak trees are old, the grass a little too long. The breeze from the lake carries the voices of the people down below sitting in the sand. For some reason, the sounds of the children playing were musical. I loved looking down at them knowing they were living when my child couldn't. I felt vindicated, not envious. Children do live. They laugh and smile and enjoy life. I look forward to the day when l hear my children doing the same.


Loraaf said...

The view is just breathtaking! I am amazed at your strength and faith. God is amazing!


The McFarland Family said...

Thanks for sharing with us. I, too, continue to be amazed by your strength!

Brooke said...

what a beautiful place! you and CJay are AMAZING! love you much!

dmndcn said...

I like to think of him being cuddled by Mamaw Pierce now as he lies near her. She'll keep him company until you are with him again. I still think of you two often. Love to you both.

Rebekah Edmonds said...

What a beatiful place for Isaac to rest- of course, we know where he is really resting, but what a beautiful spot for you all to go and remember him!